Life

~ Moments intercalated in time ~

And then there are those days. Those that have no magic. Those that ask us to endure. Those in which everything was about trust, abundance, spirituality and plenitude turns into various shits and doubts. And some repeated figures return like redundant fears from the past…

And that is where you have to resist. Equanimity and temperance. Patience and perspective.

That is also Yoga and growth. Yes, luck is just around the corner, but sometimes the streets get a little long and dark.

But don't be afraid. There are also keys and friends there, who will guide you back, tell you that you are doing well, that you are not alone, that this is the way. That sometimes you have to stand up and keep going. That is also part of learning about life.

Did you think everything was so easy? Not everything is always rosy…

But it's all good. Don't panic, it's just a street. Trust yourself. Breathe. You know everything is going to be okay. Those are the days when we learn the most. And luckily, we always come back.

Do you think it's easy to travel alone? Do you think we always laugh and enjoy where we are? Do you think we always take pictures of exotic dishes and windows that live in paradise? Do places always make us happy? Are we happy with who we are, with what we should be or with what others imagine us to be?

There are times when we see a beautiful sunset and it just doesn't make sense. Sometimes we just don't know how to continue, or what we're doing here. We just can't get out of our defeated heads, our uncertain futures, our painful pasts, the mistakes we want to forget and the bitterness of our failures. Sometimes we are also just not being, not witnessing, not living, wanting to get into our bed and our sheets and take them from a beautiful hotel that isn't ours. Or on a paradise beach or in the middle of an incredible place, but it's not our home.

Sometimes we just want to run away, we just want someone who understands us. Sometimes we want to not be so alone, to have a normal life and be able to take care of it. Maybe we just don't know or didn't know how. Maybe that's what we're looking for sometimes. A normality that doesn't drown us.

Sometimes we just get stronger, keep dreaming and take on the world.

“And we are the same people who sit between those we love and feel upset. – Riley texts me at 1am, those messages that aren’t messages but rescue ropes – We had the foresight to leave. To get out of the comfort that made us angry and bored. Now the mother who upset us makes us cry because her words are funny. We thought we knew it all, then we sit alone for so long and realize that what we know is that we need love. Not forever, not in a way that we depend on anyone, but in a way that we can hold our loved ones close and realize that they are special. Of course, we will forget. We will get comfortable and upset very quickly, but it’s nice to remember that the things we took for granted we now long for. It’s nice to take a big leap away from our life and look at it from a distance. To see what you’re missing, but also that where you don’t want to go back.

And on the journey we meet people who have also taken a step away from their lives, and we stand side by side, for a short time, watching the sunset, forgetting to think and forgetting the world, looking into each other's eyes and thanking the scared little self that launched itself into the unknown."

Here Riley, a friend. Thank you @ thewandongchronicle.com for completing us. How lucky to have a Riley to share this journey of writing and uncertainties that is life. There are beings who in our paths become brothers-flesh. Who understand us without speaking, who seem like soul mates without being so. Who support us, encourage us and make us see our own value when we get lost. People who lift you up like an angel and return you to your place, or even higher than it.

Simply if you find one like that, try to do everything possible to not lose it. Shared fears are less strange. They become kinder and less monstrous. The complicity of not being alone in these pains allows us to laugh at them a little and release them behind that mask where we lock them up. Maybe, at some point, we will no longer need more masks to hide what does not need to be hidden.

Thanks for reading ♡.